Depressing Post

I have good days and bad days here in ktown
Weekends are usually the worst. Im sitting here alone all day because Brad works every weekend and I have no car. I start to really miss home on these types of days. I know its selfish but my only really good friend I had is now pregnant and can't go out and drink or do anything really. And she never calls me because she always feels sick. Am I not fun to hang out with?? I dont know, I just find that no one here really calls ME.
Im near tears right now and I feel so stupid for it, the reason is stupid. I asked another friend yesterday if she was doing anything (drinking, going out) at night and she said she probably not, and then today I txted her and asked her if she wanted to do something tonight, assuming she had a boring night last night, she didnt txt me back but when I went on facebook her status said she was still drunk and that last night was so fun. It made a stabbing feeling in my stomach. It s not even her fault, who knows she was probably just to drunk to think of calling me or txting me.. but times like that makes me feel so alone. My friends at home would never do that too me. They call and txt me asking where I am if im like 30mins late anywhere and to hurry up and get there. lol.
I thought I was finally at a good place last week when school started. It was so great.. to bad it only lasted like 4 days... now im back to where I was in the Summer.

EDIT
I need to stop wasting my time being depressed and feeling sorry for myself. I tend to do that too much =\ So I had my little moment and now I have to get on with my life, lol. Starting with a to do list. ...random comment but it sounds like a bird outside is either dying or having some kind of crazy bird sex....end random thought.
Stuff I want to get done:
- clean up and vacumn living room
- do the dishes in kitchen
- throw out old stuff in fridge
- change bedding/clean up bedroom
- clean office/guest room
- write out notes for all classes

Traa La La

I'm surprised to find out that a lot of people still have personal websites. Hmmm.. very interesting. Anyways, my boyfriend is getting mad at me for being on the computer. I'm a nerd, I can't help it. haha. But, that means this isn't going to be a very long post.

This weekend I got very bored because I have no friends where we live right now (we live here for school and everyone goes home in the summer) so I decided it might be fun to make my own personal-ish website again. Vox just isn't the same, and no one ever updates anymore. My old site "Blu5h.org" got closed down so Ill have to use this free crap for now. I can't bring myself to pay for a site, let alone deal with all the html shit. This is so much easier.. I just point and click. I have no creativity anymore.. its sad..

So Ive been going blonde since march and my hair is just starting to resemeble blond in the last couple of weeks, mostly because I'm to impatient and just bleached it myself. My hair used to be black.. dyed black.. so it took a lot of highlights to get to this point. Next week im bleaching it again and I think that should be good. Ive never gone blonde before so this is kind of exciting to me.